I'm Not Ready

The results of my entrance exam will be posted tomorrow. I don't know what to expect. And If the worst will happen tomorrow, I am not ready yet. I'm not yet ready to accept that I will be studying on April pa. I'm not ready to accept another failure. I'm not yet ready to explain again. And finally I'm not ready to feel the same emotions that I have been experiencing for the past months. If the worst will happen, I hope I have the strength and the power to accept everything and the clear mind to plan again for a new start. Kinakabahan na ako.